I wonder what it’s like after forever..

Ganito pala ung feeling. Alam mo un binibilang mo ung araw parang mas lalong tumatagal. Excited na talaga ako. The real essence of being a woman – having a baby!

Kinakabahan na rin ako. I dont know what to expect. Masakit ba? Mahirap? Kasi ung mga napapanood ko sa movie feeling ko exaggerated eh. Pero malay natin ganon pala talaga un. Haay! Matagal pa ba? Lagi ko nga kinakausap si Baby ko eh lalo na pg sumisipa at sumusuntok. Hehe! Sobrang likot kasi. Ganon daw talaga kapag Baby Boy. My precious Baby Andrei Ciazar.

Pano nga ba naging ganon ang name ni Baby?

Kasi hindi pa man me preggy, nagpaplanona kami ng hubby ko (boyfriend ko palang sya nun) ng kung ilang baby ba gusto namin and ano ang names. Actually we started off with a baby Girl. Yun kasi ang gusto ko, para malambing and eventually madali utusan paglaki (hehehe!) Then nagkaroon kami ng pet, binigay nya saken si ANDRES, male half-breed white fur dog. Super lambing nun. Naging Andres ang name kasi UNDER-DE-SAYA daw si hubby ko sabi nya. Kaya ayun naging lokohan lang na “naku pag mag-asawa na tayo malamang under na under ako, ngayon palang eh, kaw na ang leader.” Hehehe! Anong magagawa ko eh nag-papa-under naman sya sa powers ko. Then ayun na nga, nung napagusapan namin about baby names, nabuo ang ANDREI, root word ng UNDER-DE-SAYA. Hehehe!

Pero I’ve searched for meaning of Andrei, eto nga- The Russian name Andrei means - “brave.”

The name Andrei means - A form of the name Andrew, which means “strong” or “manly.”

Then yung Ciazar, wala gusto ko lang kasi ngreresearch ako nun ng baby names, katuwaan nga lang namin pero eto kinarir ko ang paghahanap. Super search ako sa internet. Wala namang lumabas na CIAZAR kahit search mo pa ngayon. The Latin name Caesar means - long-haired. History: a title for Roman emperors. Medyo hawig sa Ciazar kaya ayun medyo niramble ramble ko lang.

All in all ang meaning ng Andrei Ciazar is Brave Long-haired emperor. Grabe boy na boy ha. Ewan ko nalang kung maging berde ang dugo nya balang araw. Wag naman sana. Hehe!

Planado naman si baby nung binuo namin eh. I mean we really intended to have a baby by 2010. After we knew that our company’s closing by third quarter of 2009, ayun, blood rush. Medyo kinabahan na kami ni Bok (nickname ng hubby ko) kasi nga pano na kami? Four years na kaming sanay na magkasama everyday. Natakot kami sa mga possibilities, oo mawawalan na kami ng work and yet ang pinoproblema namin eh baka magkahiwalay kami ng trabaho. Hindi naman lahat ng aapplyan namin eh pareho kami matatanggap diba. Medyo devastated kami that time lalo pa yung pressure na we were both breadwinners in our family. Kumbaga hindi pwedeng mabakante. Oh Lord. Ang hirap ung time na un. Pero unti unti namin narerealize it’s not the end of the world diba. And competent naman kami para makahanap ng new job. So ayun nagrelax na kami. Pero sinasamantala namin un time na masolo namin ang isa’t isa. Then biglang pumasok sa eksena ang Wedding Bells. Nagpropose sya without a ring. Alam mo un out of the blue. Hahaha. Kasi natatakot daw sya na mawala ako sa buhay nya lalo kapag hindi na kami magkasama sa work baka makahanap daw ako ng iba. Eh ang ganda ko naman kung ganon. Pero likewise un din naman napifeel ko. What if sya naman makahanap ng iba diba. Kaya ayun nag-usap kami heart to heart ng mga pros and cons ng gagawin naming BIG STEP. Pero bahala na mahal na mahal ko yung mokong na yun eh. Tapo sa bugso ng damdamin, nangyari na nga ang sweetest thing in the world. We owned the whole night snuggling each other. Sarap grabe, ganon pala talaga kapag mahal mo ung tao. Wala ka ng iniisp kung mali ba o tama ang ginawa mo. Basta ineenjoy mo lang yung moment na magkasama kayo. Ang saya super. So after a month, July 3, 2009 to be exact nakakaramdam na ko na parang kakaiba to think na one month palang yun after nung ‘sweetest thing happened’. Sowhy worry diba? Pero eto praning na praning ako. Kahit sya natatawa saken, ganon daw talaga kapag nagiguilty. Eh irregular pa naman ang period ko. Then naisipan namin mg PT. Grabe nanginginig ang kamay ko habang ginagawa un. Pagtingin ko sa PT, ang linaw TWO LINES. Jozko diba positive un? I called him up without wasting even a second. Umiiyak ako hindi ko alam kung bakit. Pero wala ako naramdaman na takot. Nung sinabi ko nga sa kanya, ang saya ng lolo mo. Grabe sa wakas daw talagang mag-asawa na kami. Naku pano yan kung kelan mawawalan na tayo ng work. Sabi nya ‘Kaya yan basta magkasama tayo’. Oo typical line yan sa mga pelikula pero iba pala kapag siya na mismo ang nagsabi. Ang sarap parang You and Me against the World diba. Astig! Kaya ayun relax lang kami. Then July 13 when we decided to undergo a real ultrasound just to make sure diba. Ayun nga super positive. Six weeks na si baby sa tummy ko. Ang bilis ha! Iba pala ang kamandag ng hubby ko, parang nag tongkat ali. Hehehe!

So ayun na nga, tanggap naman ng both families namin kasi ang tagal na namin and hindi naman kami nagkulang sa pagtulong at pagmamahal sa pamilya namin kaya madaling nasettle ang lahat. Walang kumontra. Ayun na nga ang sinasabing destiny.

Now, im on my 40^th week of pregnancy. Pwede ba ko magdeliver anytime. Mature na si baby. Kakaexcite! Lalo naman ang daddy nya. Laging kinakausap si baby. Sobrang mahal nya ang anak namin. Kapag kinakausap at hinahalikan nya ang tummy ko grabe natutunaw ang puso ko. Nakaktouch. Ramdam na ramdam ko na family na kami. Lalo na kapag lumabas si baby naku baka maya’t maya nya kurutin. Ang dami na nga nya plans for baby eh. Tuturuan daw nya magbasketball. Niloloko ko nga sabi ko dapat singer si baby kasi singer ako. Naku ayaw pumayag baka maging bading daw si baby. Hehehe!

Baby isa lang ang wish ko, sana maging masunurin and God-fearing ka baby. I would teach you all the good deeds. Walang nega.

Kung alam mo lang baby kung gaano ka namin kamahal ng daddy mo. Kelan ka kaya lalabas?Gustong gusto ka na namin makasama. Haay baby, paglabas mo, magpapafiesta kami!

And now we will be a happy family! Weee!!!

You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.

I think that was what I’ve learned after I got the piece of paper that I looong wanted. I thought I’m ready to let go and move on.. That was what I thought.

I requested for an early release in my company because I cant wait any longer to budge and find a new home. My plans were all well kept in my memory that were just waiting for the right time to put into action. And then there was my envelope. My supervisor gave it to me the day I expected.. I thought I was ready. I requested for it, I fought for it, But then when I got my envelope, I felt like I wanna shatter into pieces and Uh-oh, Can you take it back sir?

I should be happy coz I got what I wanted, but it’s the other way around. I started calculating on my mind, I only have 3 months left to stay here at Intel. Then there was a blood rush. I don’t know how to start.

Now, all that remained is an abstract form of art.

Though I have my backup plans, really my dilemma is ‘Getting Started’..

But I know God has better plans for me. I trust Him. Whatever it may be, I have to take some chances, I have to risk losing it all, I have to close my eyes and leap because it might worth the fall..

One thing is for sure, I will miss everything about Intel Philippines—The Building, It’s Logo, The people, My friends and not-so-friends, Food, Salary, Bosses, Memories..

Hmm.. Good luck on our new journey.. Let’s keep our faith up.

Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of life contains three descriptions: COULD HAVE, MIGHT HAVE and SHOULD HAVE..

Happiness is..

1. Waking up in the morning after a sweet dream.

2. Hearing my favorite song on the radio.

3. Having someone telling me that I am beautiful.

4. Falling in love.

5. Having a great conversation with my family.

6. Singing non-stop with my Magic Sing.

7. Cooking French fries.

8. Laughing so hard that my face hurts.

9. Accidentally overhearing someone saying something nice about me.

10. Sunset on the beach beside Marvic De Guzman.

11. Bonding with my CHARMED friends.

12. Laughing at myself because of my imperfections.

13. Lying in my bed listening to the rain outside.

14. Having intimate moments with him.

15. Party all night with my friends.

16. Watching my puppy and cat sleeping soundly.

17. Waking up so late but still smellin’ the rich coffee aroma being brewed.

18. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

19. Shopping! Shopping! Shopping!

20. Dancing in the tune of Pon De Replay by Rihanna.

21. Playing PS3.

22. Arranging my 100+ Book collections and still counting.

23. Seeing my family in perfect health condition.

24. Being so excited celebrating my Birthday every year.

25. Knowing that I’m getting’ older. Yiii!!

26. Blogging my heart out.

27. Doing a Photoshop.

28. Sipping a Double Fudge Moolatte @ Dairy Queen.

29. Buying a very nice 3-inch-stilletos size 10.

30. Waking up because I need to go to work.

31. Spending time with new friends.

32. Sleeping on my honey’s lap while he’s playing with my hair.

33. Getting a hug from my friends after helping them solve their problems.

34. Knowing that somebody misses me.

35. Doing my best in everything.

36. Counting my blessings-àgreat family, being loved by my Honey, Having great but real friends and knowing that God is guiding me throughout my entire life.. They’re the best thing that God has given me.. I’m just sooo LUCKY.

She is brave. She has always been brave. But I know even heroes has their own weaknesses. Superman is vulnerable to green kryptonite & magic. Spiderman’s weakness is his sense of responsibility. Iron Man-his chest plate contained a pace-maker because shrapnel had stopped his heart. Wolverine becomes weak to places with magnetic fields. People are defenseless when it comes to loving someone….

We have been best of friends for years now. We’re on the same school. ‘Twas second year high school when we became classmates. I don’t know how we became best of friends. We created a group named Promil Teens Star.

Me-Super Diva

Khitel-Miss Congeniality

Kay-Anne-Wiz Kid

Matet-Muse

Rye-Heartthrob

We get along very well, we have the same interests and views. Super protected namin ang isa’t isa against mapang-asar nung high school. We are lifting each other up. We believe in each other. Kahit nalipat kame ng section nung Fourth year high school, still we managed to keep our friendship intact. Not until we graduated. Nag-iba na kameng lahat ng Universities. But, kame ni Khitel, kahit magkaiba ng school, Super friends parin. Ewan ko ba. Dami na din naming pinagdaanan ng bruhang to. Inaaway nya ung mga nambubully saken. Ako kasi ung weak sameng dalawa. She is independent. Ako yung iyakin, loser. But she’s always at my side. Lalo na pag nasasaktan kami pagdating sa love. Dun naman sya mahina..

Kaya siguro nagja-jive kame. We complement each other. Kumbaga Mangga at Bagoong, perfect combination.

Even if we found another circle of friends, hindi parin naming maiwan ang isa’t isa. I love her so much. Madami na din ako naging best friends pero iba si Khitel. Kahit kulang kame sa time na mag-bonding, lagi parin sya nasa tabi ko. Yung iba nga tinatawag akong best frend pero hindi ko maramdaman. Sinasaktan parin nila ko.

And she is now in United Kingdom, a registered nurse and works at Meadowcare Homes. I know kung gano kalungkot dun pero bilib ako skanya, kinakaya nya. She love her family so much. And I love them too. Mabait sila and very welcoming. Mafefeel mo na part kana ng family nila. Love you guys!

Now, she has a problem. I want to help her, I want to protect her, pero wala ako magawa. Under sya ngaun ng emotional downtime. I know how hard it is bez, but like Im telling you, I didn’t know you to be a quitter. You’re always the queen of your palace. Kahit malayo tayo, naiisip kita. I wish I could be with you now and shopping galore tayo pampawala ng stress. Hehe! But seriously, don’t take life seriously. Magulo noh? I know.

I don’t expect na sundin mo ang mga pinapayo ko for you. Nasa sayo parin yan. Kung ano ang alam mong mabuti, yun ang gawin mo. After all, you deserve the best, not the better.

Eh pano mo nga malalaman kung best na ba yun or better? Look within your heart. Ang gusto ko at gusto naming mga nagmamahal sayo ay yung makakapagpasaya sayo. Malayo ka sa family mo kaya naiintindihan kita. Just pray bez. Sabi ko nga sayo sana malakas pa ako kay God, kasi kasama ka sa prayers ko.

Loka ka isave daw ba ang mga pinagsasasabi ko? Hehe! I know im not in the position para magpayo sayo kasi marami din ako failures. Pero ang mga sinasabi ko sayo ay totoo. Ayaw ko lang maranasan mo ang sakit na naranasan ko na.

I believe in you. Helow, kahit nga bagyo gumigimik ka, kaya alam ko na kahit may problema ka ngayon, may dahilan para magsaya ka.

When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness, instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal..

Haaay..this too shall pass…

Bez, this one’s for you:

~~It takes half of our life to find true friends and half of it keeping them, I am lucky to have spent less than half my life finding you and wish to spend the rest keeping you. I am just around. Love you bez!~

during her despedidad party

I wasn’t looking for it neither wished for it, but I’m so glad that God paved a way for us to meet. At the right time.

It was a sunny morning, I was walking at the busy streets of Makati City going to Convergys at RCBC Plaza when I received a call from Intel Technology Philippines telling me my schedule for interview. I was so happy then, because I’m really used in working at a semiconductor company.

Oh well, I signed a contract-got hired on March 28, 2005 as a Manufacturing Specialist.

My first day at work had not been so fun because I was sick. I habitually sneeze even inside the air-conditioned shuttle bus. Eeew! But I got no choice.

Third day of work. Right after the orientation, I rode on the shuttle bus but I never wore my seatbelt since day one. But that time, our driver was kinda serious that he wanted me to wear my seatbelt. Oh God. I had a hard time putting it on. So there was this one guy, he sat right next to me and helped me put on my seat belt. The man I started naming as “superman” since the first day of work. He was also hired at the same date as mine. He evidently liked superman upon wearing superman shirts since the first day. I thought he was a snob because of his strong features. He has a deep toned skin, curly hair, expressive big eyes and a yummy nose. I just had a chance to study every part of his face when he sat beside me. Then we formally met and exchanged numbers. I knew it wasn’t right for me to entertain guys because that time I was still committed to another guy, but I considered myself unattached already because even if we don’t have a formal break-up, we didn’t even talked for months until then. But still, I’m being unfair. I know.

Time flies so fast that I developed a feeling for Mr. Superman. He’s so charming and funny. We got along well. Im so comfortable with him. No man has ever made me laugh like he does. He used to call me “panget”. It was his endearment. Laugh-out-loud. He said I amused him. Because I’m the only girl he knew that was not shy of sneezing out loud as if I own the world and there’s no crowd. I always make him laugh unintentionally. I dunno how but he always wanted to see me laugh. The first words that he texted was “basketball lang ako ha, love you!” The nerve! But deep-inside, kilig!

Then, the next thing I knew, we we’re exclusively dating.

It seemed that everything had fallen into place until the day he never talked to me. Then I saw him flirting with another girl. I don’t know exactly what I felt but there’s this burning feeling inside my core that I would want to wreck into pieces. I can’t bear the pain. That’s when I realized, I’m in love with him and its killing me.

I tried to talk to him. I wanna clarify things. At first he was hesitant but I kept on insisting to tell me the truth why all of the sudden he ignored me. That’s when I knew he found out about my previous relationship. He thought “kame pa”. I explained everything to him but I knew he didn’t believe me at all. Weeks have passed and all about “us” was vanished.

I was badly hurt but I came to realize that it was really my fault of not telling him the truth. But God knows how much I love him. I’m drowned.

Then one time he approached me. We talked. And he said he’s miserable without me at his side. That he’s ready to be with me again and he’s willing to accept the fact that I have a boyfriend aside from him. (To think that we don’t have a relationship yet.) I kept on telling him that I’m no longer committed with another man. It took months before he believed me. I really thought he would never come back to me after what had happened. Then we formally started our relationship.

Again, I thought everything was okey. Until his ex-gf started to ruin our relationship…

I felt like it was my karma.

The FIRST ATTACK.

I was the one who read her personal messages in his yahoo account telling him how much she loved my boyfriend. That she wanted him back and she’s willing to give herself to him just for them to be together again. My first reaction was “Do u have to be this desperate just to have what you’ve already lost?” I pity her, really. But that pity slowly turned into hatred when I got the chance to talk to her thru text. She has this courage and very eager to have my man back in her arms. To think that they had been separated for years! She always calls him but my boyfriend always rejects her call. We talked seriously that I wanted to be fair. But my Bf really doesn’t love this girl anymore. I believed him. But this girl was so persistent. She will never stop until she got what she wants. My boyfriend. Bitch.

But my boyfriend talked to her and told her that they were through. It was my happiest day.

But then this girl used her 100% power just to win him back. But luckily, she never won.

It’s as if my boyfriend cost as much as Grammy’s.

But I know he’s more than that.

Reconcillation.

There were many girls who wanted to be with him. I don’t know what his secret. Maybe his Hanes.

He entertained some of them before. But it’s his will when he stopped. I didn’t do anything to change him. It was his choice. I asked him why did he quit- smoking, frequently drinking and flirting with girls.

He didn’t even have to answer, I know why. But I still wanna hear it straight from him.

He love me so much, that’s he will be crazy without me. I never expected to hear it from him much more when he actually changed his lifestyle, from a bachelor to tamed lover.

I didn’t even have a magic spell, just pure love.

I thought our relationship will be miserable forever. That it came to a point that we have to separate our ways to fix things before we get more serious with our relationship.

I didn’t expect things to be this way. I found the one. The very good one.

Even though we started our relationship with big problems, there has always been a solution to everything just as long as there is great love that binds you. I was just so lucky. And I never regretted that I gave him a chance to change.

And now, he’s at his best. He love me so much, I can feel it more than I can say it.

Im just so thankful that God gave me a very good man to grow old with.

Now I know, no one can ruin the very strong bond that we share.

Have you ever had this feeling that just by looking at him, without saying anything, you know that your day is complete?

Thank you so much honey for everything. For accepting me for who I am. Even if you sees the real me, you still want me to be your wife.

My family loves him so much. He’s such a good man. Very responsible.

He always helps my family whenever there are problems. He loved them.

That’s the most important thing to me. Loving my entire family.

And I also love his family. They are great.

It took a year before our relationship goes back to normal.

But it’s all worth it.

Our past ends here though its always great to look back on how we get through and how we found each other.

There has always been a petty quarrels that I’m sure every relationship has gotten into.

But now were very happy that we grow together. We started building our dreams. I think our problems really helped us become more mature in approaching things. Were very happy every single day. We know each other very well, our weaknesses, our mood swings, our strengths.. And were trying our best to understand and respect each other.

Our 4 years of being together led us to a new horizon. Planning for the future.

Funny we had alist of entourage, our sponsors, number of guests, menu, motif, flowers, target wedding date. But were still preparing for our financial stability.

A 3-hour wedding ceremony is not really what matters. But what life is waiting after that day. Would things will still be the same. It’s important to be emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically and financially ready before you take the next step.

You should be prepared for the pros and cons. There are many people out there that celebrated the Wedding-of-the-year ceremony and yet they are not happy, in the end-Annulled.

That’s the least thing that we would want to happen.

He inspires me in every way. That made me put on my fingers at my computer table and started creating this blog about him. About love. About life.

I know for a fact that in a way, I can’t fulfill his humane nature yet but he can wait until forever. Right Honey?

God, I know I had not been a good daughter to you sometimes, but you know that Im really trying my best to be the best for you. You’re the least person I would want to be upset with me. After all my shortcomings, you still give me the best man that can help me find myself. Thank you for giving me a blessing- a wonderful family and responsible husband-to-be.

Thank you so much for everything.

Honey, sorry for being so bratinela. Thanks for pampering me. Thanks for making my life colorful and helping me in every way you could.

Now, I cant ask for anything more.

I have found my dwelling place-Right beside you, clinched into your arms.

I love you.Too.

match made in heaven

Plot Overview:

Twilight

Bella Swan moves from Phoenix, Arizona to live with her father in Forks, Washington to allow her mother to travel with her new husband, a minor league baseball player. After moving to Forks, Bella finds herself involuntarily drawn to a mysterious, handsome boy, Edward Cullen. She eventually learns that he is a member of a vampire family who drink animal blood rather than human. Edward and Bella fall in love, but James, a sadistic vampire from another coven, is drawn to drink Bella’s blood. Edward and the other Cullens defend Bella. She escapes to Phoenix, Arizona, where she is tricked into confronting James, who tries to kill her. She is seriously wounded, but Edward rescues her and they return to Forks.

New Moon

Edward and his family leave Forks because he believes he is endangering Bella’s life. Bella falls into a deep depression, until she develops a strong friendship with werewolf Jacob Black. Jacob and the other wolves in his tribe must protect her from Victoria, a vampire seeking to avenge her mate James’ death by killing Bella. A misunderstanding occurs, and Edward believes Bella is dead. Edward decides to commit suicide in Volterra, Italy, but he is stopped by Bella and Alice, Edward’s sister. They meet with the Volturi, a powerful coven of vampires, and are released on the condition that Bella be turned into a vampire in the near future. Bella and Edward are reunited, and the Cullens return to Forks.

Eclipse

The vampire Victoria (James’s mate from Twilight) has created an army of “newborn” vampires to battle the Cullen family and kill Bella. Meanwhile, Bella is forced to choose between her relationship with Edward and her friendship with Jacob. Edward’s vampire family and Jacob’s werewolf pack join forces to successfully destroy Victoria and her vampire army. In the end, Bella chooses Edward’s love over Jacob’s and agrees to marry him.

Breaking Dawn

Bella and Edward get married, but their honeymoon is cut short when Bella discovers she is pregnant. Her pregnancy progresses rapidly, making her weak. She nearly dies giving birth to her and Edward’s half-vampire-half-human daughter, Renesmee, but Edward injects Bella with his venom to save her life by turning her into a vampire. A vampire from another coven sees Renesmee and mistakes her for an “immortal child”, whose existence violates vampire rules, and informs the Volturi. The Cullens gather vampire witnesses who can verify that the child is not one of the immortal children. The Cullens and their witnesses convince the Volturi that Renesmee poses no danger to vampires or their secret, and they are left in peace.

~http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twilight_(series)

New Moon Trailer Fan-Made

The hardest part of any friendship is when it is time to say goodbye. As much as we might like things to stay the same, change is an inevitable part of life. The universe may seem huge and the rift between friends on opposite side of the world may seem a great distance indeed. There are many tools available with which we can communicate such as letters, phones, email etc. Even without these tools, there is a secret that only real friends know, and it is this. All the mountains and valleys in the world cannot separate friends whose hearts are as one..

Thanx guyz for rockin my world..For touchin my heart..And for bein there whenever I feel like cryin and for sharing your life with mine…

At one point in my life, I realized, Its true..Love your job but never fall in love with your company..

I dont know how to move on, its kinda hard..
Im just so blessed that I was a part of a 30year lifeline of Intel here in Philippines,.
I will miss all about Intel..

The shuttle bus that Im comfortable sleeping on..
My workmtes cum frends that made my workloads lighter..
The Urban Chef Cafeteria were I first tasted the Super Spicy Pancit Bihon-still amuses me.
The Wirebond Machines that made me decide to take Stresstabs, haha! Lolz..
My supervisors that were so generous of giving me sky high increase in my salary (oh, well, I deserved all of those..or so i thot..^^)
Speaking of bucks, I will miss my Salary(read:capslocked salary) and my Payslip that always got bc during 10th and 25th..
The employeeportal.intel.com/irj/portal.
Our CV1 built 30 years ago. Whew!
The Rest Area where we shared fun moments together, when supervisors’ not around..Haha!
Oh, I almost forgot the RTI table, hahah!! Discreet when it comes to Mishandling Issues haha!
The ICH7, ICH8 and ICH9 products that we were manufacturing..
Haha! I will never forget the Allen Key that was given by Kuya Fred after the announcement of our company’s foreclosure..Geez! What for?Wrong timing..hihi!
The elevator, Comfort Room and Pole B1 for Benefit concerns..^^


My Family at Intel:

Aubz-lub ko tong bru nah toh..Supeer!!
Lei-sis cum bez na mdalas ktampuhan..hehe!
Nerie-srap ksama & real frnd tlga..
Rena-i wud say kacng vain ko or mas higit pa tong bru nah toh hehe!!
Mhai-ang minsan mejo makulit and mahgpit pgdating s work..
Tery-nako nuknukan ng berde..hehe! cool toh!! lub u
Weng-kasing ugali ko DAW pagdting s pagtatampo..wee!!^^
Luzve-super discreet pero mahrap magalit
Oshe-ang treasurer ng WB
Che-Mis congeniality
Vinz-Jowa ni che. Dude thanx s mga knowldge powers hehe
Edz-laging hinahanap c batman at robin
Obie-ang mgnda sakong hehe
Sir Rix-ang sup ko na nagtititwala s kakayahan ko..Thanx s skyhigh increase..
Sir Rnie-ang nagbigay sken ng rating na outstanding and i got promoted (oh yan guyz cnb ko na ha..wala ng hihirit pa..secret un eh..osha osha..hehe!)
Sir Eric-ang sup ko na green minded..daw ha!!
Sir Jojit-na adic s pushball..hehe
Kuya Zaldy-naisip ko lng ilagay hehe jowk ang kulit kc toh ni kuya patawa!hehe
Malou-nako iba ugali ng tao nah toh..bsta ewan..haha biter!!akin nalang un auko manira haha!!
Ate Ana, Ate Fema, Ate Ming-ang mga kalocker ko..left-ryt-under.hehe
Ate Polly-ang People Systems na cool tlga magdownload!asteeg!
Ate Shine-makulit na inlovevavo ngaun..echuz uuuyyy!!hehe
Kuya Ariel-ang hari ng PRS haha peace!!
Ate Cecil-ice breaker ng WB...etcetera..

Haay nku super dami tlga..Edit ko nlng toh hehehe! super dami eh!!hehe
Cant name all of them, it will take a day!.
Basta guyz…Thank u tlga s lahat ng frends ko, s mga iniz saken, s mga nakasagutan ko, s mga insecure, s mga nakacompete ko sa SInging Idol ska s Summer Bodies, s mga Security Guards na nakakainis tlga pag nagXXRay..BASta s lahat! MAliit na bagay man or hindi..LAhat yan naging part ng everyday life ko s Intel..

Lub n Lub ko kau guyz…
Tex2 nalng ha, email2..Coment2…Chikka2..Bsta….
GOD BLESS!
Muah!

July 12-14, 2008
COnfirmed! =)

This is a Copied from his original Blog @ wretch.com..

After 3 years in showbiz, I can say that it is really not easy for me!
The duration is neither short nor long. However, this career has given
me full of hardship along with touching and joyful moments! It has
given me the chance to know so many of you and to let the people around
this world get to know a very simple guy from a small country like
Brunei… hahaa!

During the past 3 years, I have to admit that I experienced a lot and
when I come to think of it, all these experiences happen not only from
my hardship but from all the great opportunities and the support from
all of you! From my 1st drama and Fahrenheit’s 1st album to my 3rd
drama and Fahrenheit’s 2nd album and now my 1st movie and Fahrenheit’s
Asia concert tour…Wow, its unbelievable! Honestly, I really do cherish
every single moment and always hope to make myself better. I really
don’t know why I am giving myself all these pressure. It’s
indescribable…
maybe it’s due to the huge sacrifice of parting with my family…

maybe it’s the culture of this biz…

maybe it’s the support  from all of you…

maybe I am trying to challenge myself  to do things I have always been always of doing!

Whatever it is, I am really grateful to everyone who supported me all
these while, many who influenced me and I have always told myself that
I need to absorb as much as possible because everything that happens
around us everyday is a lesson and learning experience. I always tell
myself try not to become a man of success but rather try to become a
man of value.

My debut movie is about to wrap up soon… Such a nice crew along the way
and of course, I can now feel that I will miss each and every filming
moment with all these wonderful people! Filming this movie has been the
happiest decision I have made and though I don’t know what the outcome
will be… like what I’ve always said, I did my best so what’s
important to me is the experience that I encounter and the challenge… I
met many nice people, 2 directors who are unbelievably thoughtful and
hard working and most important of all, I find great satisfaction in my
work as an actor because I am willing to learn and they are very
willing to teach…Marvelous! Michael Jordan once said "You have to
expect things of yourself before you can do them." Hey Michael, I am
listening! Hahaha

Having traveled to various cities in China for the past 2 months, it
has given me different feelings and memories. I realized that in many
places there are still people who are living a very simple life… Maybe
they live their whole life without shopping or entertainment… but
still… they do spend time with their family, growing fruits and veges
and even selling a big basket of strawberries for only RMB5! Hey,
what’s wrong with that? Are you able to adapt to this kind of life? Yes
or No? Well, when you think of it… that’s the life they had ever
since they were born into this world. I did approach few and had a
short chat with them and they are happy with their life…that’s all that
matters, isn’t it? It really proves that happiness can be very simple.
It’s actually up to you if u wants to be happy or not… For me, life in
showbiz is very complicated but I guess I am lucky that I am from
Brunei and I have always and will try to live a simple life because I
think being simple is the key to happiness…Try it ☺ Fight for your
happiness like a WARRIOR!
Well, I have been busy focusing on filming my debut movie for the past
2 months and…Tonnnnns of activities coming up and can’t wait to meet
all of you! YEAH, good good good..hahaa!!!

16 June ~ Beijing for Zespri Kiwi activity
17 June ~ Shanghai for Shanghai Film Festival
21 June ~ Taipei for Zespri Kiwi activity

12 - 14 July ~ Philippines for Romantic Princess promotion – OO, Andito na ako!!!

19 July ~ Kao Siong for Guerlain activity
26 July ~ Taipei for Guerlain activity
24 and 27 July ~ Taipei for Hotshot activity
28 and 29th July ~ Japan for Butterfly Lovers promotion
30 and 31 July ~ Korea for Romantic Princess promotion
2 Aug – Tai Chung for Guerlain activity

Quote to share: -

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but remember… it’s never too late!"

"Anyone can start today and make a new ending."

I duno where to start..Hhhmm…Siguro ganito nlang..

MY online buddy jack
texted me a week ago if I want to jcome with them for I Am KC taping..So, mejo nagulat ako, all of a sudden biglang nagtext sya ng ganun…But unfortunately,.late ko na nabasa ang text nya…So, nakapagreply ako midnight na…But you know destiny parin kaya pagtxt ko sa babaeng toh, ayun counted pa ko..Pero you know, the funny thing about this?..Naisip ko baka ilegal recruiter toh si jacky…Mahirap na..
So, I decided na isama ang bestfriend ko c Krestel..
OMG, payag naman lola mo, (di nalang daw po xa papasok sa review nya…hihi)
Then we decided to meet up in Gateway mall..That was yeterday….
Ang oras ng hintayan eh 7pm pa…but you now 10:00AM gising na po ako…(di naman exited masyado diba..)
Actually, I only have 10% idea of what’s gonaa happen sa taping…"CAST DAW KASI KAME.."
Waw, bongga diba?
THen magdala daw ng THREE estra shirts..(HHmm..napaisip ako…)
-Baka nga CAST kame, kasi pinapagdala kame ng extra shirt eh!!
HHmm..To cut it short,
On d way to Gateway mall, our meeting place, (im with krestel na)..
ang gulo ng kameet up namen c jacky…paiba iba ng location! (hhmmm…)
Nakatunog kame ni Krestel..Hala baka illegal recruiter o kaya bugaw!…(ang dumi ng isip nyo men!!)
Funny, naisipan naming gumwa ng note on a piece of STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE paper,
we put our name, adres, bday anf contact numbers ng family namen para if in case na etong jacky na to eh manloloko, masalvage ma kame eh alam ang identity namen!! (SOBRA NA KAYO GUYS AH…)
Eto, humirit pa ako, Naglagay ako ng P500 bill sa pocket ng jeans ko para if magnanakaw pala eh may pamasaje pa kame pauwi!!
PERO MAHIRAP DIN PALA ANG SOBRANG MAPRANING….
===Ang bait pala nitong Jacky na toh, despite the fact that we waited for hours…omg!!!
___Naku ang haba na pala ng kwento ko—-
—sa taping na tau——-

Nakarating kae sa ABSCBN sa may TOWER ENTRANCE ng 7PM…Then hanggang dumating na yung mga ibang KOOKIBERKS…Hhmm…
Punta kame ng starbucks then on the way, nakita men si GEMMA FITZGERALD OF PDA..AND c CRISTY FERMIN…
Finally, nakapsok na kame sa STUDIO 10…
SOSYAL…MAY FREE MEAL
ANG KOOKIBERKS!!! EXCLUSIVE….
hhmm.. AAAYYYT TALAGA TAU!!!

Nagsetup po sa stage ng studio 10 (ASAP SETTING PO UN!)
nagsimula na po kame ng 2:30am…ANG TAGAL PO NG HININTAY AMEN…kasi si miss kace eh may taping pa nun sa ibang location…
GRABE LAGARE TALAGA….SIPAG TALAGA NI MISS KACE IDOL!!!

Ayun, ang sarap tlga ng feeling ng unti-unti ng dumadating ang mga casts…. c VHONG NAVARRO, VICTOR BASA, MICO PALANCA…MISTER M PO ANG DIRECTOR…

SULIT NAMAN PO ANG HININTAY NAMEN NG MATAGAL..KASI ANG BAIT PO NI kc!!!

PERFECT tlga xa…ANG GALING PA SUMAYAW!!!
DANCE show po ang tineyping namen..(naks!)
KAME PO ANG MGA AUDIENCE…
BUT INFAIRNESS,,KITANG KITA NAMAN SA CAMERA..MGA
nakailang shoot and take din po yun..ang hirap pong sitwasyon ni miss kc…grabe…ang dami pa nyang lifting and tumbling….grabee…
AMBER DIZON PO ang name nya sa LAST EPISODE NG I AM KC TAPING EVERY SAtURDAY..BIRTHDAY SPECIAL LANG PO KASI YUN KAYA ONE MONTH LANG ANG SHOW….
Well anyway, dame ko nameet na kookiberks and friends….
TYT na kame ngaun ni JACKY MUSLIM, KAYE, CANDY AND RIA…hhmmmm…
piz jack!!hehehe!!
MAY MGA UNTUGAN DRAMA PA!!

Haaayyy…ang hirap pala magkwento ng mga nangyari kasi ang lahat ng details ninamnam pa ng isip ko…
AFTER TE SHOOT…NEXT STOP SA BASEMNT…PERO MTY nlang po yun …..di po kame kasama na….
hindi nga kame pinapasok sa dressing room ni miss kace eh…ayaw ni gurard..taray!
Pero po ayun naloka lola mo….Nagsiuwian na lahat ng kkokiberks pero natira kame.
GO kame sa Dresing room nya sa 2nd flr..Dressing room number 16,,sa 15 po si vhong navarro…
Tinawagan ko si MISS CHIQUI her PA para magpaalam na picture kame kay KC..ayun pumayag nama…ang bait ng PA nya..(oh diba tyt din kame..)
ANG GANDA NG FONE NI VHONG AT KC..PANALO…DI KO ALAM ANONG UNT EH..HEHEHE!!!   
Matagl tagal din kameng naghintay..Finally worth the wait..Ayun  change outfit na si KC…ALL BLACK sila no vhong….TYT NARIN KAME!!
hahaha!!!

SOBRANG SAYA…
BASTA DI KO NAKWENTO LAHAT PERO…EWAN KO ALA NAKO SA SELF KO…
STARSTRuCK TLGA KO SA KANYA…..
AND INFAIRNESS TO VHONG, ang gwapo PALA NG OKONG na yun….GRABE TLGA…ANG GWAPO NYA…C MISS KACE HAAAYYYY…
breathtaking….and ang bango…
(yun ang perfume na bigay ni richard..)
issue??..hahaha

Aquarius-Gemini (Honey..)

Ah, romantic chemistry: so thrilling, so unpredictable — and yet, so exhausting. Any two signs of the zodiac can get along if both are willing to work out their differences. Opposite signs, though, share a special attraction right from the start — but also face the special challenges that come with having very different personalities.

Just as a battery creates an energizing spark when opposite polarities are brought together, signs that are polar opposites on the horoscopic wheel generate sparks that can ignite passionate relationships. But spending time with someone whose approach to life is completely opposite your own can be draining, too, and eventually your relationship battery will need to be recharged. How can you and your opposite sign revive the spark that brought you together — and maintain your relationship’s sizzle?

Gemini (May 21 – June 20) – Sagittarius (Nov. 22 – Dec. 21)
From the moment that sparkling, intellectual Gemini meets sage, philosophical Sagittarius, your mutual love of ideas sparks immediate fascination. Your opposite approaches to the world of the mind can, however, drive you to frustration, with Gemini growing annoyed by Sagittarius’ know-it-all attitude and Sagittarius irritated by Gemini’s love of chatter and gossip. Transform the tension into sizzling sensuality with forays into the realms of nature and imagination. Take a swim, hike in the mountains, go on a safari; or spend an afternoon losing yourselves in music, film or art. Simply getting out of your heads for awhile can refuel your passion — and give you new and exciting ideas to talk about.